Remedial at Vegetables

Remedial at vegetables
Unfit to clean a house
Completely undomestical
I just don't know what to do with myself
There's only brush across the street
The occasional freight train
No one sees me dancing gothically
Through my dirty window pane
Trevor Something, something
He's my digital husband
We make vaporwave in his basement
Or so that's what I pretend
Doordashing Wienerschnitzel
The driver refers to me as dude
I wish I hadn't tipped his ass
That's hella fucking rude
This poem is not too thematic
I guess I apologize
Just feeling somewhat chromatic
Merely a day in the life
Now the sun descends again
What have I done this day?
Play make-believe and dwell within
My world's in retrograde

Cognitive Astrology

Sedated cow or psychosis
Insomnia v. hypnosis
Weep at work or sleep by 8:00
Medicate or stay awake
Who told me I shouldn't feel?
At what point did I cease to deal?
So some boyfriend went away
No one said that he would stay
Okay so I am OCD
Obsess, compulse, redo, repeat
The answer's not in Lexapro
Or so the last decade has shown
Perhaps I'm just from Mercury
This is all astrology
Stars and spirituality
Neptune skews reality
A misaligned chakra or 7
A torn aura open to Heaven
I'll patch it up with prayer and seeking
Searching, learning, hoping, dreaming
Paint new skies upon my ceiling
Write down words which lead to healing
Wake each morn and face the music
I have faith that I won't lose it

P & C

Patrick is Piscerian
C is a Cancer
Seaside sibling water signs
Generation Z undines
Electric fish illuminates
With lightning he communicates
Snow crab safe on nearby shores
Pinching, snapping, evermore
Neptune's trident stirring storms
Arrive at beach in Luna's arms
Waves dissolving in the sand
Sea creatures wash up on land
Though they've shed their scales and claws
The life aquatic sometimes calls
Walking Earth with briny powers
Taking 90 minute showers
Dreamy, tidal, sentimental
Atlanteans turned occidental
Ocean sprites now elementals
Terrestrials: please do be gentle

Uranus Trine Mars

A magician, a technician
'cause Uranus trines my Mars
A musician, a physician
of keyboards and of guitars
Wielding power, taking action
Manifesting from the stars
Wire, cable, periodic table
Plutonium, electric cars
Sparking, shocking, I'm unlocking
Who you are and what you do
I don't practice Santeria
Not to worry, no voodoo
Moving, touring, you're exploring
Corners of this universe
Mixing metals, pressing pedals
Creating rhythm, writing verse
I'm not patient, but persistent
Plugging in and turning on
Flipping switches, changing fuses
Casting light on what went wrong

Satan and Bad Aliens

Satan and bad aliens

Ruling Earth with iron fists

So annoying, life destroying

Why did I sign up for this?

Spiritual warfare, maybe

How it makes me miss the 80's 

What I wouldn't give

to be 0 through 9 again

Cabbage Patch Kids, Teddy Ruxpins

Popples, GloWorms and Van Halen

Mr. Rogers, Cyndi Lauper

This is Thriller, Get to the choppa!

Suppose evil was there too

in George Bush Sr. and crew

We live in a world we did not make

Nothing new under the sun

Until they take away our guns

Sew our mouths shut, Handmaid's Tale

Six feet under, see through the veil?

It's thinning out, you only have to look

Raise up your head, open your eyes

Tune your antennae to the skies

Ask for courage, ask for strength

Pray for knowledge, then give thanks

Take off your pants and jacket

Take your protein pills and helmet

Get up, stand up, for your rights

We can do this, we can take 'em

We're God's children, not forsaken

Grand Trine

Gorgeous soul in your expression

From inception through the womb 

Always honoring your fire sun 

Swimming with your water moon

What you speak is what you're thinking

What you do is what you want 

No perversion, no diversion 

Nothing underneath to haunt

Conceive and then construct things

Erect each vision one by one 

Music, lovers, Saturn's rings

Your work here is never done 

Ascend and heal and radiate 

From a spark, a thousand songs 

Smile and shift and cocreate 

You will right a million wrongs 

Your lasso circles all around 

It has caught me in your spell 

I know I'm not the only one 

And so it's just as well 

I watch you from the sidelines

In the thicket and the thorns

As you effortlessly easily 

Take this life by storm 

It's okay, I'm catching up 

I have a lot to learn

but I've left a light on for us 

Here within my heart, it burns

My Life

Toyota Camrys 

Full of families 

Driving down my street

Dads and toddlers

Moms and daughters

Walking by each eve

Pregnant ladies

Dogs and babies

Tricycles, grade school

Babysitting, blanket-knitting

Birthday parties by the pool

Me, I'm single

Eating Pringles

Watering my lawn

Nodding, smiling

All the while I

Wish I could play along

I should not covet

My life, I love it

Right? I ask myself

2 kitties, candles

Sundresses, sandals 

And yes, I have my health

Scorpion

You nasty fucking scorpion

You wicked fucking witch

Why the hell did you get married?

Why the fuck did you have kids?

You're mean, you sting, you've hidden things

You chose not to protect

To this day, you deny everything

to every single life you've wrecked

I wake up nights and hate you

because I cannot take control

You have burrowed in my psyche

You have warped my fucking soul

No prayer, nor pill, nor therapy

has done me any good 

I've accepted responsibility 

as best I fucking could

And yet here I am at 38 

awake at 2:00 AM

by a nightmare situation

playing out without an end

Fuck you and your abandonment 

Fuck you and your judgement

Fuck me and my decision

to perpetuate this long descent 

Worthless, wasted, languishing 

On autopilot at this point

Only counting down the hours

til I get to blow this joint

By this joint, I mean this planet 

on which I've failed to ascend

I never want to come back down here

Least of all with you again

Blue Jay

Blue Jay in the sky, on a wire, standing by

Were you sent here by a guy - 

remotely viewing through your eyes?

What is it that he has to say?

What is this missive you convey?

Were you sent from outer space?

Represent a martian race?

From the shores of Waikiki?

Do you have a lei for me?

Paris, France, bonjour, oui oui

Kawaii, Japan, Hello Kitty

Now we meet in this backyard

Virgos sent here from the stars

Gazing up and looking down

Message greeted with a frown

Understand you, I do not

Now it's hot and I'm distraught

Close my journal, pack it up

Back to day job, back to rut

Drop a feather as you go

I put it to my lips and blow

Close my eyes and make a wish

When you return, you take me with

Jupiter

I was meant to have a daughter

She would be called Jupiter

But the sun's rescinding farther

And as it goes, its taking her

I still see her in the ether

And I hear her in the breeze

I can feel her in my heartspace

But in this life, I'm on my knees

I cry out to her, "I'm sorry,"

Apologize a thousand times

I am catatonic, paralyzed

Bereft of all but rhymes

I cannot move to make her

Cannot bring her to this sphere

Cannot rise to meet her father

Cannot seem to make him hear 

I pray to God each evening

From the shower, then my bed

Please release me from this movie

Looping always in my head

A Disney princess ending

Do I see inside my dreams

Sleeping Beauty, Cinderella

Amy Adams with Dempsey

Spanish Castle Magic

We dwell high up in the sky

We come down to visit mortals

Jupiter, and you, and I

I know that I agreed to this

I just need strength to see

All I drew up in the heavens...

Can you help me make it be?

Happy Birthday

Happy birthday, alchemist

Electric body lyricist 

Leo sun with Pisces moon

Fire starter, lover's swoon

Majestic mane and lion's roar

Storyteller, ancient lore

Healer of the earth and soil

Tied to you by mortal coil

From the stars and winding down

Promise that I'm coming round

Spirit speaking through a smile

Remember though it's been a while

Tones of home and love with child

Imagination running wild

Making music, writing song 

Singing, strumming, hum along

Through grace of God, by walk of life

Courting, wedding, husband/wife